So, here we are four months later - in the middle of a huge thunder storm no less.

I haven't visited my blog for months, so it feels quite odd to read the 'about me' piece, and my two previous posts. I made some changes to the 'about me' bit too. That felt even weirder.

Life has changed quite significantly since my last post and there is a part of me that just wants to delete this blog entirely and create a new one. Wouldn't that be great - when life gets tough - delete - new blog please :)

Life is messy and painful at the moment. My emotions are all over the place. I have trouble finding any kind of emotional bearings, because the things that I've always used to navigate are gone.

So what about God you may be asking...good question. I understand that it's while camping out in the proverbial valley that God shows up with a flashlight and cup of tea, but I have to admit that I'm not sure if I'm ready for that cuppa just yet.

It feels like a mild panic....like I've just been told that guests are going to arrive in 10 minutes....but the house is a mess and I've just colored my hair and put hair-removing cream on my legs and bikini line! Not to mention the dirty laundry and dishes in the sink...where do I even start?

Can you come back tomorrow? I'm not ready! I'm not ready! I'm not ready!